Today, is Day 15 of my COVID-19 sickness.
Taste and smell has been completely gone for 12 days.
Cough is still ongoing.
Heavy mucous is still lodged deep inside my throat and lung lining.
I am tired 60% of the time.
I have no appetite.
I still feel disembodied. A disconnection from my bodily flesh, my body’s interpretation of conscious flesh which, for the moment, does not feel like mine. I don’t belong to me right now.
I also don’t belong to society, or to the community that I thought I belonged to.
I, like so many others, find myself alone with COVID-19, seized by its malady.
I can only analogize it to the movie, Body Snatchers.
Body and leg aches are gone.
Headache has significantly improved.
I can sleep better with the help of Melatonin. Melatonin is a hormone primarily released by the pineal gland at night, and is associated with control of the sleep–wake cycle. As a dietary supplement, I am using it for the short-term treatment of insomnia.
I stopped feeling nauseous two days ago.
I have not had diarrhea in two days.
I still feel vulnerable.
I have been humble-whooped by COVID-19.
I am in a deep state of reflection.
I feel like I will never be the same again.
I am being redirected to focus on what’s most important, significant and worthwhile.
I feel like I’m ready to let go of all the drama and toxicity in my life.
By George, I feel like I’m actually getting a piece of enlightenment bestowed upon me.
But I am not delusional, well at least not right now. (I was definitely delusional 10 days ago.) I”m guessing that many others might have had this “enlightenment” moment come upon them like the parting of Moses’ sea. Life looks very different when we’re brought to our proverbial knees, when we are fragile, vulnerable, alone and very, very sick.
I have decided to write a trilogy on the topic of COVID-19 to share my experience. My hope is that this can assist others in better preparing should they contract COVID-19.
Blog #1 will explore
My Experience of COVID-19 & My Regimen of Supplements and Drugs.
Blog #2, will speak of:
The Stigmatization of COVID-19 and Mental Health Issues.
and Blog #3 will address:
The Mind-Body Relationship of COVID-19 and How It Has changed My Life Forever.
First, what I have discovered is that nobody’s body interprets the virus in the same way. Some people have fewer symptoms than others, for some people it lasts 3 to 5 days, for others like myself, I am still experiencing symptoms on Day 12 and others have shared that they are still not their “old selves” after one year of contracting the virus.
For me, the first five days were completely debilitating. I could not get out of bed, I was delirious, sweating profusely, experiencing massive body pain, insomnia, nausea, diarrhea, fever, confusion, non-stop headaches, and major loss of memory. I experienced blurry vision, and exhaustion and still do.
As of Day 6, I started to feel slightly better only to feel much worse again on Day 8 and again on Day 10. But in between days, the experience was more of a few hours of feeling terrible and then a few hours of feeling better.
COVID-19 feels like a schizophrenic house guest who is unobtrusive at times while being completely overwhelming and seriously disturbed at others. You never know which side of the virus will appear and when. One moment, you might feel like you’re on an upswing and the next, you are being beaten to your knees, unable to rise as the senseless battering drives you into oblivion.
Yup, it was that bad for me but some people reading this might find it too much. They may think that I am exaggerating, that I have a penchant for hyperbolizing.
But I assure you that I don’t. Not in this case. Which is why I posted my condition on Facebook and invited you, the reader, to NOT relax your mask-wearing protocols.
My suspicion is that I contracted COVID-19 at a birthday party where up to 40 people were maskless, myself included, except for one single woman.
The craziest component of this situation is that I let my guard down because I felt like “I knew these people.” And superficially, I do know “these people” but I have no idea what their lifestyles are, how many groups of people they find themselves in on any given day or if any of them had COVID-19 or not.
There was no reasoning to my actions. I just decided to let my guard down and not wear my mask. I got careless after 18 months of almost full quarantine and wearing my mask 99% of the time.
What happened there? Why did I get lackadaisical? Why did I rationalize the situation as being “safe” and “ok”?
Humans are magnificent creatures of habit. We are arrogant, pompous, privileged and ignorant. We have good intentions but we are also unaware and mindless. That was definitely me on that evening. Unaware and mindless…a woman on the loose wanting to forget about The Times Of COVID and simply have a good time without a care in the world.
Magical Realism is defined as what happens when a highly detailed, realistic setting is invaded by something too strange to believe.
I feel like our planet is the “highly detailed, realistic setting” and that COVID-19 is the invader “too strange to believe”.
And yet, it cannot be more believable than when you experience its sinewy toxicity running through your veins. It’s a sly virus that has brought me to my Jesus moment, honestly thinking that death might be nearer than farther.
And so, I do not mess with an impeding virus of doom.
I received A TON of amazing information from many. You can find a lot of this information on my fb post dated from December 2nd, 2021.
Some of my friends sent me series of supplements and medication to assist me in my recovery. If I had been better prepared, I suspect that my condition might have improved much faster. I know that my friends and colleagues who were prepared seem to have had a much easier time of managing their condition and their recovery.
I would strongly recommend having all of the following on hand and taking the recommended dose as dietary supplements.
Here is the list:
Vitamin D (vitamin D3 5000 IU)
Meriva 500-SF Curcumin Phytosome
Turkey Tail Immune Support (mycelium)
Reservatrol 150 Liquid Phyto-Caps (Japanese knotweed root extracts)
Black Seed Oil (Gaia brand)
NAC (N-Acetyl L-Cysteine) (non-essential amino acid for detoxification)
Melatonin (temporarily for insomnia)
If I am learning anything at all from my experience with COVID-19 is that patience and forgiveness truly are virtues. To have the patience to go through this debilitating condition without punishing myself mentally and to practice forgiveness towards myself for having wanted to have a “normal” time out, with a bunch of other people who wanted to have a “normal” time out.
You know that saying, “once burnt, twice shy”? Well, COVID-19 has burnt me to a crisp and I am not only shy, I am very, very shy. One does not reappear unscathed from such an experience.
I hope that this blog can bring some comfort and insight for those of you who have either gone through it or are wondering how to best prepare for it.
According to some researchers, everyone will contract COVID-19 at one time or another. I wish that I had been better prepared for its effects and hope that you will take heed to my blog and prepare yourself for any unfortunate possibilities.
As always, if you have any questions, insights or simply would like to share of your experience in a mindful manner, I would love to hear from you.